I have come to be very aware of the fact that I am becoming a zombie, a easily pissed person and a pessimistic person.
I wake up 8am during weekends and do PTs all the way till 5pm, of course with lunch and breakfast. But no matter how long I spent, I still cant finish them. A biology PT, a geog PT to be handed up on 5 Aug and 6 Aug respectively. And a poetry PT with a requirement of more than 1000 words to be handed in on 3 Sep. Nxt wk is my Jap CA and I still dunno when to use which particles. が、も、で、くて、へ、に、の、は I can never tell the difference. I just end up guessing and getting everything wrong! I still cant rmb my Katakana. To b exact, CANT BE BOTHERED TO. I haven hand up my Jap compo, which has a high weighting. I dunno how to do the geog PT... IM GONNA DIE!!! I dun smile or laugh tat much at home anymore. Perhaps once or twice to stop me from falling asleep half way through a PT.
Even our Chinese teacher complained. "A class which is enthu and noisy" turns into a "tired, zombie-like class". Our class got named as "the most adorable" class bcos some of us r extremely cute when we get HIGH. But losing all our high-ness, we r just 105, a plain, boring class. It's hard to get excited nowadays, with it being the PT season and everything.
Im also getting pissed with the CCA. Ive been feeling negative about it. NO USE, WASTE TIME, I dunno why I used to get so high over it. I even tried to hit my fren when she mentioned it to me.
I cant do wat used to make me happy: Animes, dramas, online multiplayer games... I DUN HAVE TIME!!!